*Sigh*

*Sigh*
I dunno how to express the way I feel..
I guess..
that I'm..
pretty sure..
fallin in love with..
"The Holy Month of Ramadan"..

Ramadan has a beautiful halo.. Shining spiritually upon little hearts, filling them with everything they need, to realize how amazing our greatest Islam is <3

I've never really felt like this before. I mean, where have I been all those years? I've wasted so many years unaware of the true value of Ramadan..

Ramadan.. the "Golden Opportunity".. a true "Gift" from Allah -The most gracious-.

It's been said that you can "Change Almost Anything in twenty-one Days....". So what if they're not just 21 days, but a month to surly make you change all the bad habits, bad temper,..etc. And also to get even closer to Allah and truly fulfill our Islamic obligations.

I'm so gonna miss Ramadan.. Especially the Taraweeh prayers at Aysha mosque.

Allah yTHabbetna ba3ed Ramadan [Amen].

P.S...

This picture describes when you face something in your life, that kinda makes you happy and sad at the same time.. it describes how when you were just a lil kid swingin' on the play ground, all you wanned to happen is grownin' up.. and when it hits you that you're an adult, and you're a grown up, you just don't really realize when happened.. because there's still that lil kid inside you.. you're still that lil child, but with more responsibilities and bigger problems..

Sometimes you really wanna go back.. because you just miss that kid..
When you used to have dreams.. when you used to trust people and know nothing while believing that everything is possible.. when things weren't mixed up.. when you used to sleep without lying in bed for hours thinkin' about everything.. about an unknown future or a chain pulling you back to the past..
When there were things that you used to say that "I will wait FOR ..." become things that "I Will FORget about ..."..

Y Es Que No Puedo Olvidar..

Blesses...

Around a year ago, I was having one "those" days... We all know that we all have one of those days from time to time... But that was hard for me... I was totally locked with stupid chains! I wasn't really able to move on and get over that hard phase...I've never been like this in my entire life!

El 7amdellah despite of everythin, but am a happy person in general. Even when I go through those kinda hard times, I try to keep the good mood. Ya3ni am not a "drama queen" or something! But that phase wasn't easy... I reached a point were I felt that I was stucked where I was! And I lost that feelin' of bein "Happy"..! But now El 7amdellah, comparing how bad those days were with today, makes me content!

It's a bless el 7amdellah!
I'm grateful for Allah... He sent me those "Beautiful People"!
They're always ready to lend me a shoulder 2 cry on or a listening ear..

They're exactly like my favoriteHaiku..

"A day of rain;
Somebody passes my gate
With irises."


雨の日や　門さげて行く　杜若　　信徳／shintoku

RIP..

Wanna cry out loud !!!

Missin' TURKEY!!!

Summer 2008! The best vacation ever!!! ='(
I wanna relive those dayz!!!!!

Seriously! I'm not in the mood!!

Well, this is gonna be a silly post! and I have no idea what am gonna write!
All I wanna say is that I really dunno what's goin' on here! Everything's so messed up!! I'm not in the mood for anything! I'm not in the mood for anyone!
So please just back off, alright!!
Lol.. nowhere to run and no where to hide, ha?

I ♥ You..

Holding your warm body tight, while you’re sleeping in my arms…
Feeling your heartbeats…
Kissing those rose cheeks…
Looking into those bright eyes…
not believing my eyes…
an angel in my arms…?!
I’ve never loved anybody in my entire life the way I love you,
Never even thought that I’d love you that much…
Never ever I have known this kind of love…
Everyday I’m loving you more and more…
from the very moment I saw you,
you tenderly touched my heart and settled it
your laughter is what I hear…
your tears is what I can’t bear…
even when I’m blue,
a smile from you brightens my day…
Spending hours looking at your face...
Praying God to grant you a wonderful life…
And May life treat you right…

Fouz HabjouQa..


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Well, this is dedicated to my sweetest loveliest little niece "MonMon"! ♥♥♥

Missin' That Home

It used to be home but it lost its spirit…
It was a place which I called heart… but now with no beats in it…
Four years and I’ve been denying the fact that something has changed…
And it would never ever be the same…
No matter how much I try…
No matter how hard I cry…
All what is left is the thing I feel inside…
Four years and I’ve been pushing the real image away…
Thinking that it might take the pain away…
Longing for that image I lived one day…
Four years and it’s the first time I face reality…
Though I deny it deep inside…
But it’s right here in front of my eyes…
This is no longer home…
It’s a place whose every aspect rushes thousands of memories, feelings, and tears inside…
Everything is in its actual place…
The smell is still there…
Every little thing is tied with a memory…
FOR GOD SAKE!!!
I can’t hold it anymore!!!
I miss you!!!
I DO!!!
I wish I can revive that soul that would scatter its sunshine over that place and turn it into home again!!!
The home where I grew up in…
With the warmth, sweetness and tenderness I was filled up with…
By you granny!
I long to hold you,
to kiss your soft hand one more time…
I miss the sound of your footsteps…
I miss your voice…
I miss you in every feeling the word contain!
I remember the way I used to run to you when you were lying in you bed… and tell you that I’m here,
how I used to jump with joy… knowing that you’re happy for seeing me!
I remember how you used to yell at me whenever I did something wrong…
I miss you nana!!!
I MISS YOU!!!
I guess I couldn’t hold the idea of you not being in the same place where you used to be…
Four years and I’ve been forcing myself not to come here!
But I guess this is gonna be my last visit here…

This one is dedicated to my beloved Nana ♥...
May Allah Rest her Soul in Peace =’(
(8-April-2004)

Fouz HabjouQa
10-April-2008