iRead (1)

I couple of weeks ago I finished reading "By The River Piedra I Sat Down And Wept" ~ By Paulo Coelho.

Here are some of my favorite excerpts from the book:

  • “Some people always have to be doing battle with someone, sometimes even with themselves, battling with their own lives. So they begin to create a kind of play in their head, and they write the script based on their frustrations.”

  • “Life takes us by surprise and orders us to move toward the unknown--even when we don't want to and when we think we don't need to."

  • "I began to imagine how I would like to be living right at that moment. I wanted to be happy, curious,joyful-living every moment intensely, drinking the water of life thirstily. Believing again in my dreams. Able to fight for what I wanted.
  • "If pain must come, may it come quickly. Because I have a life to live, and I need to live it in the best way possible."
  • "I will not talk to my own darkness anymore, I promised myself, closing the door on the Other. A fall from the third floor hurts as much as a fall from the hundredth. If I have to fall, may it be from a high place."
  • "Break the glass, I thought to myself, because it is a symbolic gesture. Try to understand that within myself, things were breaking of much more importance than a glass, and I’m happy for that. Look to your own inner struggles and break this glass."
  • "You have to take risks. We will only understand the miracle of life fully when we allow the unexpected to happen."
  • Every day, God gives us the sun - and also one moment in which we have the ability to change everything that makes us unhappy.
  • Every day, we try to pretend that we haven’t perceived the moment, that it doesn’t exist – that today is the same as yesterday and will be the same as tomorrow. But if people really pay attention in their everyday lives, they will discover that magic moment. It may arrive in the instant when we are doing something mundane, like putting our front-door key in the lock; it may lie hidden in the quiet that follows the lunch hour or in the thousand and one things that all seems the same to us. But that moment exists – a moment when all the power of the stars becomes a part of us and enables us to perform miracles.
  • Joy is sometimes a blessing, but it is often a conquest. Our magic moment help us to change and sends us off in search of our dreams. Yes, we are going to suffer, we will have difficult times, and we will experience many disappointments – but all of this is transitory it leaves no permanent mark. And one day we will look back with pride and faith at the journey we have taken.
  • Pitiful is the person who is afraid of taking risks. Perhaps this person will never be disappointed or disillusioned; perhaps she won’t suffer the way people do when they have a dream to follow. But when that person looks back – and at some point everyone looks back – she will hear her heart saying, “What have you done with the miracles that God planted in your days? What have you done with the talents God bestowed on you? You buried yourself in a cave because you were fearful of losing those talents. So this is your heritage; the certainty that you wasted your life.
  • Pitiful are the people who must realize this. Because when they are finally able to believe in miracles, their life's magic moments will have already passed them by."



Covered by dust..
her thoughts about the future..
drifting into the unknown..
Little star was feeling insecure..

Love n hatred..
Longing n loathing..
Admission n denial
Certainty n uncertainty
Joy n boredom..
Excitement n sorrow..
All wrapped around her..

Shining despite of the dust..
Through her rays of faith..


أيامُنا تمضي

تمضي بنا الأيام..
و تسيرنا الحياة في طريق مجهول..
قد تتخبطنا بعض العثرات في طريقنا..
و قد تتشبث بنا بعض القيود..
و حينها نضطر إما إلى مواجهتها برغم الظلام ..
برغم الندوب..
أو أن نترك قيودها الدامية تحول بيننا و بين مضينا قدما..

تمضي بنا الأيام..
هاجرةً قناديل مطفئةً بلا نور..
تزيد ظلمة طريقنا ظلمةً..
تاركةً لنا إختيار الظلام..
أو إضاءة القناديل..

تمضي بنا الأيام..
معلمةً الجميع السير على الأرض..
فإما أن نطأطئ أعيننا إلى أقدامنا..
أو أن نحلق وراء النجوم و أقدامنا تسير على الأرض..

فوز حبجوقه


iHate (III)

Since this is my blog n it's my personal space I can say whatever I want =p

The other day I was talkin' with a friend of mine about facebook.. He said that, "facebook explores a lot about personality", I agree with that. But it's really a doubled-edged sword.
I love that Facebook connects people.. u know, stayin' in touch with my family n friends, n those who live abroad. Forget the fact that's it's way too addictive, even when I have nothing to do on Facebook, I keep on refreshing my homepage!

What I really hate is that some people are really silly!!
I know that people who know me would LOL if they heard me sayin' that, because I do silly n funny stuff all the time.. but what I meant about "silliness" is those people who distort Love.. Ya3ni those feelings are supposed to be sacred, not to be published in the home page! I mean what's the point of expressing ur feelings to ur"BF\GF" in front of everyone? r u "showing off" or what?! =p

Don't get me wrong, I'm not against love! =p but as I said, "Love is sacred"!

Another thin' iHate about some people on FB.. is that they just love criticizing.. and the problem is that they criticize others for stuff they do too!!

ah! I almost forgot! iHate it when some stupid people add me n ask me who I am! O.o

Khalas enough with the "iHate".. so long! xD



I dunno how to express the way I feel..
I guess..
that I'm..
pretty sure..
fallin in love with..
"The Holy Month of Ramadan"..

Ramadan has a beautiful halo.. Shining spiritually upon little hearts, filling them with everything they need, to realize how amazing our greatest Islam is <3

I've never really felt like this before. I mean, where have I been all those years? I've wasted so many years unaware of the true value of Ramadan..

Ramadan.. the "Golden Opportunity".. a true "Gift" from Allah -The most gracious-.

It's been said that you can "Change Almost Anything in twenty-one Days....". So what if they're not just 21 days, but a month to surly make you change all the bad habits, bad temper,..etc. And also to get even closer to Allah and truly fulfill our Islamic obligations.

I'm so gonna miss Ramadan.. Especially the Taraweeh prayers at Aysha mosque.

Allah yTHabbetna ba3ed Ramadan [Amen].


Blah! =p

Why don't we all just treat each other in a nice way?!
Sometimes you wonder why they are treatin' you in this i-don't-know-what-to-call-it way, and start givin' them excuses enno maybe they're busy, not in the mood, etc..
They try keenly to make you feel bad !
bas la2! zawwadooha ya3ni !! Some people are just ill-hearted i guess! or maybe they don't feel good knowin' that you're better than them! or maybe they're jealous that you're loved by people and they're not! LOL! =p
Since I have to deal with them, I'm gonna keep treatin' them nicely and in the best way also..
and it's up to them to treat me in the way they want.. am not gonna be like them..
and u know what? it's their loss!! they are sick minded, ill-hearted, and they don't know how to enjoy their lives XD!
Ray7o 7alkom ya jama3a, 'nd get a life XD!
Beh aslan =p


Gönül salıncağı

Yanağım yanağında, dudağım dudağında
Salla beni sevgilim gönül salıncağında
Başım dönsün,herşey dönsün salla beni
Dünyam dönsün gönül salıncağında
Aşkında varsa payım söyle neler yapayım
Sallasana doyayım gönül salıncağında
Başım dönsün,herşey dönsün salla beni
Dünyam dönsün gönül salıncağında
Gözlerimi kapayım derdimi unutayım
Salla beni uçayım gönül salıncağında
Başım dönsün,herşey dönsün salla beni
Dünyam dönsün gönül salıncağında
Aa.. Gönül salıncağında..


Nezar (I) ..

I removed a couple of words from the poem..

U know.."Nezar"..

محاولات قتل امرأة لا تقتل

وعدتُكِ أن لا أُحِبَّكِ..
ثُمَّ أمامَ القرار الكبيرِ، جَبُنْتْ
وعدتُكِ أن لا أعودَ...
وأن لا أموتَ اشتياقاً
وعدتُ مراراً
وقررتُ أن أستقيلَ مراراً
ولا أتذكَّرُ أني اسْتَقَلتْ...

وعدتُ بأشياء أكبرَ منّي..
فماذا غداً ستقولُ الجرائدُ عنّي؟
أكيدٌ.. ستكتُبُ أنّي جُنِنْتْ..
أكيدٌ.. ستكتُبُ أنّي انتحرتْ
أن لا أكونَ ضعيفاً... وكُنتْ..
وأن لا أقولَ بعينيكِ شعراً..
وعدتُ بأَنْ لا ...
وأَنْ لا..
وأَنْ لا ...
وحين اكتشفتُ غبائي.. ضَحِكْتْ...

أن لا أُبالي بشَعْرِكِ حين يمرُّ أمامي
وحين تدفَّقَ كالليل فوق الرصيفِ..
أن أتجاهَلَ عَيْنَيكِ ، مهما دعاني الحنينْ
وحينَ رأيتُهُما تُمطرانِ نجوماً...
أنْ لا أوجِّهَ أيَّ رسالة حبٍ إليكِ..
ولكنني – رغم أنفي – كتبتْ
أن لا أكونَ بأيِ مكانٍ تكونينَ فيهِ..
وحين عرفتُ بأنكِ مدعوةٌ للعشاءِ..
وعدتُكِ أن لا أُحِبَّكِ..
وفي أيِّ يومٍ تُراني وَعَدْتْ؟
لقد كنتُ أكْذِبُ من شِدَّة الصِدْقِ،
والحمدُ لله أني كَذَبْتْ....

بكل بُرُودٍ.. وكُلِّ غَبَاءِ
بإحراق كُلّ الجسور ورائي
وقرّرتُ بالسِّرِ، قَتْلَ جميع النساءِ
وأعلنتُ حربي عليكِ.
وحينَ رفعتُ السلاحَ
وحين رأيتُ يَدَيْكِ المُسالمْتينِ..
وَعَدْتُ بأنْ لا .. وأنْ لا .. وأنْ لا ..
وكانت جميعُ وعودي
دُخَاناً ، وبعثرتُهُ في الهواءِ.

أن لا أُتَلْفِنَ ليلاً إليكِ
وأنْ لا أفكّرَ فيكِ، إذا تمرضينْ
وأنْ لا أخافَ عليكْ
وأن لا أقدَّمَ ورداً...
وَتَلْفَنْتُ ليلاً.. على الرغم منّي..
وأرسلتُ ورداً.. على الرغم منّي..
وعدتُ بأنْ لا.. وأنْ لا .. وأنْ لا..
وحين اكتشفتُ غبائي ضحكتْ...

بذبحِكِ خمسينَ مَرَّهْ..
وحين رأيتُ الدماءَ تُغطّي ثيابي
تأكَّدتُ أنّي الذي قد ذُبِحْتْ..
فلا تأخذيني على مَحْمَلِ الجَدِّ..
مهما غضبتُ.. ومهما انْفَعَلْتْ..
ومهما اشْتَعَلتُ.. ومهما انْطَفَأْتْ..
لقد كنتُ أكذبُ من شدّة الصِدْقِ
والحمدُ لله أنّي كَذَبتْ...

وعدتُكِ.. أن أحسِمَ الأمرَ فوْراً..
وحين رأيتُ الدموعَ تُهَرْهِرُ من مقلتيكِ..
وحين رأيتُ الحقائبَ في الأرضِ،
أدركتُ أنَّكِ لا تُقْتَلينَ بهذي السُهُولَهْ
فأنتِ البلادُ .. وأنتِ القبيلَهْ..
وأنتِ القصيدةُ قبلَ التكوُّنِ،
أنتِ الدفاترُ.. أنتِ المشاويرُ.. أنت الطفولَهْ..
وأنتِ نشيدُ الأناشيدِ..
أنتِ المزاميرُ..
أنتِ المُضِيئةُ..

بإلغاء عينيْكِ من دفتر الذكرياتِ
ولم أكُ أعلمُ أنّي سأُلغي حياتي
ولم أكُ أعلمُ أنِك..
- رغمَ الخلافِ الصغيرِ – أنا..
وأنّي أنتْ..
وَعَدْتُكِ أن لا أُحبّكِ...
- يا للحماقةِ -
ماذا بنفسي فعلتْ؟
لقد كنتُ أكذبُ من شدّة الصدقِ،
والحمدُ لله أنّي كَذَبتْ...

أنْ لا أكونَ هنا بعد خمس دقائقْ..
ولكنْ.. إلى أين أذهبُ؟
إنَّ الشوارعَ مغسولةٌ بالمَطَرْ..
إلى أينَ أدخُلُ؟
إن مقاهي المدينة مسكونةٌ بالضَجَرْ..
إلى أينَ أُبْحِرُ وحدي؟
وأنتِ البحارُ..
وأنتِ القلوعُ..
وأنتِ السَفَرْ..
فهل ممكنٌ..
أن أظلَّ لعشر دقائقَ أخرى
لحين انقطاع المَطَرْ؟
أكيدٌ بأنّي سأرحلُ بعد رحيل الغُيُومِ
وبعد هدوء الرياحْ..
سأنزلُ ضيفاً عليكِ
إلى أن يجيءَ الصباحْ....

أن لا أحبَّكِ، مثلَ المجانين، في المرَّة الثانيَهْ
وأن لا أُهاجمَ مثلَ العصافيرِ..
أشجارَ تُفّاحكِ العاليَهْ..
وأن لا أُمَشّطَ شَعْرَكِ – حين تنامينَ –
يا قطّتي الغاليَهْ..
وعدتُكِ، أن لا أُضيعَ بقيّة عقلي
وعدتُ بكبْح جماح جُنوني
ويُسْعدني أنني لا أزالُ
شديدَ التطرُّفِ حين أُحِبُّ...
تماماً، كما كنتُ في المرّة الماضيَهْ..

أن لا أخبئَ وجهي..
بغابات شَعْرِكِ طيلةَ عامْ..
وأن لا أصيد المحارَ بشُطآن عينيكِ طيلةَ عامْ..
فكيف أقولُ كلاماً سخيفاً كهذا الكلامْ؟
وعيناكِ داري.. ودارُ السَلامْ.
وكيف سمحتُ لنفسي بجرح شعور الرخامْ؟
وبيني وبينكِ..
خبزٌ.. وملحٌ..
وسَكْبُ نبيذٍ.. وشَدْوُ حَمَامْ..
وأنتِ البدايةُ في كلّ شيءٍ..
ومِسْكُ الختامْ..

أنْ لا أعودَ .. وعُدْتْ..
وأنْ لا أموتَ اشتياقاً..
وعدتُ بأشياءَ أكبرَ منّي
فماذا بنفسي فعلتْ؟
لقد كنتُ أكذبُ من شدّة الصدقِ،
والحمدُ للهِ أنّي كذبتْ



This picture describes when you face something in your life, that kinda makes you happy and sad at the same time.. it describes how when you were just a lil kid swingin' on the play ground, all you wanned to happen is grownin' up.. and when it hits you that you're an adult, and you're a grown up, you just don't really realize when happened.. because there's still that lil kid inside you.. you're still that lil child, but with more responsibilities and bigger problems..

Sometimes you really wanna go back.. because you just miss that kid..
When you used to have dreams.. when you used to trust people and know nothing while believing that everything is possible.. when things weren't mixed up.. when you used to sleep without lying in bed for hours thinkin' about everything.. about an unknown future or a chain pulling you back to the past..
When there were things that you used to say that "I will wait FOR ..." become things that "I Will FORget about ..."..


Eylem Aktaş – Gururu Yenemedik ♥

Çok Güzel !
Ben onu severim !

Those words are like, *awww* ='( !
Is it that..
I Can't get red of my "gururu"?!
*Aşk VS Gururu*
Maybe Gururu is my bad sometimes..
So I guess Aşk takes the second place..

Yenemedik gururu yenemedik
Daha düşemedik biz aşka
Bilemedik geçmişi silemedik
Daha gelemedik biz aşka
Aşka izin ver tanısın yüzünü erisin gözyaşlarım düşsünn bırak
Demir yüreğim dinlenecek görecek suretini yüreğinde
Sen benden geçsen de olur
Ahh vazgeçsende bu canda durur
Aşk bekler gururuna yol ver
Sevdam yakar yanar bu şehirler
Bırak ne olur gözyaşım yüzümü bulur
Sevdan izim olsun
Yolunu bulurum karışır deli sulara
Aşsın bırak akar yüreğim
Ah sel olur dokunur yar senin yüreğine
Sığındığım kıyılarına
Ah derman ol yaralarıma
Aşk bekler gururuna yol ver
Sevdam yakar yanar bu şehirler …”
Bırak ne olur gözyaşım yüzümü bulur


iHate (II)

iHate you Umniah..
iHate you Zain..

iHate waking up in the middle of my dream!
iHate even more when I wake up in the middle of an AWESOME dream!
iHate it when YOU stupid UMNIAH send me a stupid sms and wake me up during my dreams!
iHate it to wake up when the BEST part is about to happen!
iHate to realize that my dream wasn't real "( !!

Today I was dreamin'.. and it was AMAZING!!!
and I woke up.. because of you Umniah :@ :@ :@ !!!


Movies Assignment XD!

I Have a bunch of dvds... Hmmm.. ALL OVER MY ROOM lol! =p
So far I've watched those movies:

1. Sherlock Holmes:
is my very favorite movie so far. Simply, brilliant !!

2. Law Abiding Citizen:
Well I TOTALLY recommend this movie! It gets two big burly thumbs up! Gerard Butler fitted the role perfectly. A part of it has reminded me of "Saw" =p but it's way too different. Bottom line, am lovin' it.

To tell u the truth, when I saw the trailer i was lyk "-_-! I hate those kinda weird ugly creatures". And I'm not into those kinda movies.. But after seeing it, I loved it. Actually I love the hidden political messages in it. (Or actually they're not really "Hidden")

4. The Blind Side:
Marvellous. Very touching and a tearjerker kinda movie. I loved the fact that it's based on a true story. A beautiful new bond of love.

5. 2012:
It keeps your eyes wide open. It reminded me of two songs..Neckelback's song, "If Today Was You Last Day", and also Ronan Keating's song "If Tomorrow Never Comes".

6.He's Just Not That Into You:
I like it! It's SO MUCH true! It shows how women keep on analyzing the behaviors of men. Which is so puzzling, that "women" waste their time! Analyzing and givin' excuses and Blaaaaa Blaaa Blaaa for a dead end relationship =p enno 5alas, it's simple, "He's Just Not That Into You"!
But the funny thing about the movie.. the subtitiles were like "Google translation" or actually WORSE! but it' was SOOOO FUNNY! One of the guys was talkin' with his GF, and he said:"Honey..", they translated it "العسل" O_o! and everytime the word "gonna"was said, it was translated "الجمعية العامة" HAHA!! Don't ask me how!!!

7. Couples Retreat:
Simply.. a waste of time!
8.Up In The Air:
It's a nice movie.. but it's kinda... I don't know =p

9.The Men Who Stare At Goats:
................................................................................................................ !!!!!
O_O !!! STUPID !!!!
the best thing I've read about this movies is, "

How to Make the Best Trailer for the Worst Movie"

If you decide to watch it, you gotta check this out first,


♥Sherlock Holmes THE MOVIE♥

The other day I went to the movies to watch any movie.. and I was like, hmm lets watch Sherlock Holmes..
and to tell you the truth...
I Love it I Love it, and I Love it !!
It's my favorite new movie ++ !! Everything about it was amazing: story, cinematography; soundtracks ... It kept me engaged from beginning to end! You can't look down at your popcorn for too long during this one =p

Sherlock Holmes is a funny and witty character! I love his fight scenes, especially the part when a fighter spit at the back of Sherlock's head, when he says, "This mustn't register on an emotional level. First, Distract target. Then block his blind jab. Counter with cross to left cheek. Discombobulate. Dazed, will attempt wild haymaker. Weaken right jaw. Now fracture. Break cracked ribs. Heel kick to diaphragm. In summary: ears ringing, jaw fractured, 3 ribs cracked, 4 broken, diaphragm hemorrhaging. Physical recovery - 6 weeks. Full psychological recovery - 6 months. Capacity to spit at back of head... neutralized. " AWESOME!

And also when he Holmes says to Watson : "It's a matter of professional integrity! No girl wants to marry a doctor who can't tell if a man's dead or not."

I loved every second of the movie! It was way too entertaining, smart and well put together!
I cant wait to own it on dvd.